Lacking Closure

Just a few days past my final draft to the K/news with my stories for the insert and I am feeling somewhat overcome with feelings of inadequacyand guilt. There really wasn’t any closure and after I worked so hard, I almost feel as if it was my fault that I wasn’t able to do a better job for them. I have wracked my brain to see what I could have done differently, but outside of sitting outside these individuals homes to wait for an interview, I don’t know what else I could have done.

After HJB called me this evening to let me know he received the invoice and would pay me ‘one of these days’ I had the underlying feeling that what I did was not enough. On top of that, hiring MK to finish the section did nothing for my self esteem–she seems to pop up fairly often doing stories that I have requested. Now I feel as if she is going to be the ‘hero’ that pulled the section together when the regular writer quit.

Perhaps I am just overreacting, or dealing with mid-life hormones, but I pray for a favorable outcome and a better feeling overall regarding this project.

Maybe, like my late mother often said, ‘things will look better in the morning.’ I hope so mom!

2 thoughts on “Lacking Closure

  1. Hey there, I hope you feel better about your project- I’m sure it’s not as bad as it seems right now. I’m something of a worrywart myself, and things almost always look better in the morning. Thank you for the add! 🙂 I’m so pleased that you enjoyed my site.-“Sea”http://www.bookofyum.com 😉

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  2. Thanks seamaiden! I am still a bit worried, but you are right, things are a bit brighter this morning—despite the torrential thunderstorms that are going on right now. I can’t wait to try some of the recipes you have listed on your book of yum, you have made having to deal with celiac so much better!

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