Many of our dear friends are understandably upset with the disappointing news we received from the attorneys. At their request and because we wanted to know–we have contacted many different lawyers, but they seem to be part of one big club that sticks together, so we aren’t certain if we are being treated fairly or not because they will not comment. The only comment we received from one lawyer was to contact the State Bar Association about our lawyers–however, that all takes time and will probably exceed the three year statue of limitations on the personal injury cases. So it isn’t worth it.
All of this has given me time to think about our life, our situation and God’s will for us.
I don’t know what God wants for us. I thought I knew a few years ago when I swear I thought he was speaking directly to my heart and giving me a message–but perhaps I heard it wrong or misinterpreted it because nothing has turned out the way I imagined it would be. Nevertheless–Blaise could have been killed or paralyzed that day he was injured at the home improvement store, and thanks be to God, I still have him here and he is still a lot of fun to be with.
Not too many couples can say that their spouse is their best friend and they would want to spend time with that person above anyone else–but we can and that is a gift that no money can buy.
This morning, as I was taking a bath–I looked out the window at the little sparrows who have made a cozy home in the birdhouse next to our bathroom. They were busy fluttering about and taking turns bringing food to the four new mouths. Those little birds are a sight–featherless, blind and gaping beaks–just waiting for their next morsel–totally dependent. This is an arduous task for them that continues all day and resumes at the break of dawn in the morning. For at least two weeks those little babies are dependent upon their parents and the parents are dependent on God’s mercy to have food to bring to the nest.
In thinking about their dependence, and our sorry situation, I remembered the passage from Matthew 10:28 that says, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.”
Then I remembered that God is still with us and still hears our prayers and desires of our heart–and He will take care of us how He sees fit. We are like those babies–blind, hungry and vulnerable–just perfect for molding by His mighty hand.
That comforted me.