Recently I think I booted God from His throne and took over the responsibility of running things myself.
I don’t know when I decided that I could do a better job of being God than God, but here I am trying to handle it all.
Instead of running to Him with my feelings of discouragement about personal, family and financial issues, I began handling everything on my own…….. feeling depressed?
“that’s ok God…..I’ve got it.”
problems with the offspring?
“don’t sweat it God, I am tough, I can take everything dished out to me and pretend it doesn’t bother me.”
ready to lose the house? job going south? money not coming in?
“You want me to pray about it? oh, don’t worry God–you have enough to worry about with everyone else–I mean there are starving people all around the world–you don’t need to worry about me; I can do this.”
See what I mean?
By taking all of this on my own shoulders, my own weary back and in my own wounded heart, I have taken God’s job away, and with it, the blessings, grace and mercy accompanied with it.
Suddenly, I remember these words from those wiser than me:
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday. Psalm 37: 3-6