Finding the Grace

Oh we are all faced with it at one time or another, aren’t we? Feelings of inferiority, failure, and insignificance. It is so easy to dwell on the negative-loss of money, loss of youth, loss of family and friends–in fact, if queried, we could easily come up with a substantial list of negatives. 

It’s easy to list our faults and the daily details that plague our peace, but coming up with the positives are a different story altogether. 

Face it, we are hard on ourselves and more so, we are hard on God. 

If we, as imperfect beings are given the gift of life, faith, providence,  laughter, sunshine, a roof over our heads, and food to eat–who are we to criticize where we fit in the economic or popularity class system?

I do it all the time and I am ashamed that I do so. 

Looking back at the vicissitudes of my life are many years of suffering–but there are many more of happiness, laughter and wonderful memories.

Why is it then, that I dwell on the bad?

Have I forgotten that God has been present through it all? It has been His arms cradling me as tears pool on my pillow. His thoughtfulness as we somehow find the means to provide for our family, and His grace that I have survived the darts from those once close. 

He was here all along, and I didn’t pay attention.

What seems horrible in my eyes is perhaps an opportunity for growth in His. I can’t say how many times, I have uttered to God that I can’t take another disaster, another bill, another sickness, another, another, another……….and yet, I am still here and still able to complain. 
I think its time I make a list–I am grateful for my faith, my husband, for all five of my children, for my four grandchildren, my job, enough food to eat, clean water, a warm house, a fuzzy puppy and our two parakeets (ok, not so thankful about them), close friends, caring colleagues, cars that work, good medical care, gluten free groceries and recipes to go with them, and wonderful memories of my parents, siblings and other relatives.

Lord help me see your hand, your grace and your love through all my struggles.
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you. 

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