The Reinvention project-day 9

Behold the birds of the air, for they neither sow, nor do they reap, nor gather into barns: and your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are not you of much more value than they?Matthew 6:26

Yeah, like a lot of Americans, we struggle. We have medical bills, medication bills, utility expenses, credit card bills, home equity loans, mortgage, school tuition, etc, and oftentimes I go way beyond fretting. I become completely unglued in trying to calculate how to pay an enormous number of expenses with only a fraction of the income.

I pace.
bite my nails
sweat
become sick to my stomach
suffer insomnia
cry
and pray so much that my fingers seem to have permanent imprints on them from my rosary beads.

Financially, not only has my worrying gotten me nowhere, but we are spiraling downhill fast.

However, the rosary calluses are another story.

With each gentle movement of my fingers running from one bead to another, while meditating on the mysteries of the Most Holy Rosary, and with each Our Father and Hail Mary, my muscles loosen; the creases in my face relax and internally, I am reminded once again, that God has it all under control.

Just today, peering in on my sleeping husband who had surgery this morning, I realize that God has provided all that I need: food, shelter, faith and a loving husband and family. Who am I to question this path we are on?

I believe. Help thou my unbelief

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