The Reinvention project-day 26

After having a back procedure today that required sedation, I spent the remainder of the day in a fog. It reminded me of the fog that encompassed the majority of my first 40 years of my life. I rarely felt valued or real–much of the time, I felt like a chameleon that blended into the expectations of what others wanted me to be.  Hiding behind dysfunction, pain, abuse and depression, it was as if a dark veil covered my eyes and weighed down my soul.

Years of healing made me into a new person, but I continue to be a work in progress—which requires daily prayers, daily devotion and reinforcement from the Holy Eucharist.

Often, the evil one works on my mind, threatening to drag me down to that foggy place, but he doesn’t realize that my secret weapon is Jesus who reinforces who I am and gives me the strength to continue.
 
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38

and Philippians 3:13-14 tells me:

No, dear brothers, I am still not all I should be but I am bringing all my energies to bear on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God is calling us up to heaven because of what Christ Jesus did for us.
Thanks be to God–I mean, who thought I could learn a lesson from a medical procedure?
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