While most of the material in my life is gone
many of my family has passed away or left my life
things I found necessities are no longer important
vacations that I used to think just reward for a year of hard work, suddenly mean little when putting food on the table has become challenging.
Going to fancy dinners, concerts or movies has changed to quiet nights at home, reading, watching Tv or playing games.
Am I a failure?
Is my life meaningless?
Did I do something wrong?
On the contrary, my husband and I are surviving through difficult times
not only surviving, we are thriving because He is within us
Each day, he gives us the grace and mercy to continue along and despite the bumps in the road–they are little in comparison to the suffering He endured for me.
Although we have little left to offer to each other or to others, we have compassion and we have integrity and perhaps that is the greatest lesson of all. For when it is all said and done, I long for the heart of Jesus and if the suffering we are enduring is to mold our hearts into His, then it all the suffering is worth it.